Here we go again...

Well, here I am again.  Getting up early to see if I might catch DH on the computer before he goes to bed and staying up late to see if I might catch him as he comes in from work.  I told myself this was over.  I wasn't going to do this anymore, but here I am.  Checking my email 100 times an hour to see if maybe by some chance he had a quick moment to email during his day.

I had decided a while back with all DH's TDYs that I wouldn't let myself do this.  That I would keep on doing what usually do, you know, just keep living and yet, this time I'm finding myself attached to the computer clicking refresh hoping for something more. 

It's crazy.  Really it is.  He's not deployed just TDY.  He's not in harms way, just far away.  This is actually how it was early in our marriage.  Well, except back them we didn't have a computer or a cell phone.  I would sit around the house waiting for a phone call... I wouldn't leave the house for fear I'd miss his call.  Like I said crazy.  At least now, when he is TDY in the states I can take my cell phone with me and he can call me on it. 

But he's not stateside so the computer is all I have and it seems to be attached to me once again.  It's not a good thing for me or for our relationship. I end up getting upset and feeling down and lonely and wondering why he hasn't skyped or emailed or facebooked...  Well, duh, because he is working or sleeping!  Silly, silly girl.  Get up!  Get busy!  Live life!  He'll love you for it.  He doesn't want you to be upset, down or lonely (well, maybe a little lonely for him :o).  He wants you to miss him of course but he also wants you to be happy.  He wants you to get your sleep so you are well rested when he gets home. So, here I go!  Shopping trip, I am ready!  DD and Dear Friend, Let's GO!