Okay, are you ready for this? I, me, yes, mommy22ss, is spending the evening by myself doing just what I want to do eating what I want to eat! AND, I don't have to share with anyone! It's awesome. It feels wonderful. I don't know why I haven't done it more!
I am watching the movie, "Bed of Roses". I've not ever seen it but have always wanted to so.... I am... and I'm enjoying it. I don't often watch what I want to, I forfeit to the kids and DH. I don't mind but sometimes...
It's funny. People are always asking me, "Do you ever have time for yourself?" My generic answer is usually something like, "Oh, I lock myself in my room every once in a while," or "Then kids go to their groups at the church..." The truth is I usually help at church or am at least there and when I do try to lock myself in my room it is usually only for a few minutes.
I have to say, that I had no idea what I was missing!! This feels so nice. Don't get me wrong, I miss the kids and I definitely miss DH and would give anything for him to be here with me. I just never realized that just might need some time for just me while DH is away. I just can't seem to put it into words. I feel guilty as I write it but I know I shouldn't. It's really only just about 2 hours and that's not too much to spend on just me.
So, as my time draws to an end, I just wanted to share how nice it is spend a little time alone. Oh, and by the way, deployment sucks and 15 months sucks even more!