I was just coming home and I saw a helicopter and started wondering when DH would have to travel by that mode of transportation again. Then of course I thought about the helicopter crash over the weekend and then out of no where I suddenly wondered if there was a moment when they knew they were going to crash and probably die. Of course I then burst into tears. How terrible. Did they experience pain? or (hopefully) was it instantaneous? I hope there was no pain for them. Please don't disillusion me either by the way.
About year after my sister died, I had a similar experience. DH and I were driving down the road and I suddenly started crying wondering if she suffered at the moment she died and if her husband had to watch her die because she choked or something. She had been dying for a while so I know that he had to watch her die but I meant at that very moment and how long it lasted. It overwhelmed me and I eventually had to call my parents and ask.
I don't really even know why I thought about it. I guess I was thinking of DH's next trip and hoped that nothing like that would happen to him but if it did, I hope there would be no pain and no moment of "this is it."
UGH!! I'm going to stop thinking about this now but I just had to send this thought out there. This is my way of releasing it and letting it go. I pray for peace for all those who have died and for their families.