I was just coming home and I saw a helicopter and started wondering when DH would have to travel by that mode of transportation again. Then of course I thought about the helicopter crash over the weekend and then out of no where I suddenly wondered if there was a moment when they knew they were going to crash and probably die. Of course I then burst into tears. How terrible. Did they experience pain? or (hopefully) was it instantaneous? I hope there was no pain for them. Please don't disillusion me either by the way.
About year after my sister died, I had a similar experience. DH and I were driving down the road and I suddenly started crying wondering if she suffered at the moment she died and if her husband had to watch her die because she choked or something. She had been dying for a while so I know that he had to watch her die but I meant at that very moment and how long it lasted. It overwhelmed me and I eventually had to call my parents and ask.
I don't really even know why I thought about it. I guess I was thinking of DH's next trip and hoped that nothing like that would happen to him but if it did, I hope there would be no pain and no moment of "this is it."
UGH!! I'm going to stop thinking about this now but I just had to send this thought out there. This is my way of releasing it and letting it go. I pray for peace for all those who have died and for their families.
I'm the same way. I used to watch the news and cry. I call it hyper-empathy. I hope posting that helped.
ReplyDeleteThey didn't feel it.
ReplyDeleteIt is also my guess that is was all with out warning, save for the pilots who may have had that instant fraction.
Thank you, Rolligun. I think I was almost hoping you would come and say something like this. I only hope it is true.
ReplyDeleteIt's true.
ReplyDeleteI actually talked tonight with DH about it tonight and he agreed with you. He said almost exactly what you did.
ReplyDeleteI saw Kate's comment and thought of a Jack Johnson song....His music is great by the way, I promise I would not recommend crappy stuff. Anyways, here ar ethe lyrics if it will fit....
ReplyDeleteThe song is called "The News"
A billion people died on the news tonight
But not so many cried at the terrible sight
Well mama said
It's just make believe
You can't believe everything you see
So baby close your eyes to the lullabies
On the news tonight
Who's the one to decide that it would be alright
To put the music behind the news tonight
Well mama said
You can't believe everything you hear
The diagetic world is so unclear
So baby close your ears
On the news tonight
On the news tonight
The unobtrusive tones on the news tonight
And mama said
Mmm
Why don't the newscasters cry when they read about people who die
At least they could be decent enough to put just a tear in their eyes
Mama said
It's just make believe
You cant believe everything you see
So baby close your eyes to the lullabies
On the news tonight