Thinking...

I was on my way to bed and stopped really quick to read a little more of some scripture I started earlier today and it got me to thinking so.... here it is.

I'm not much of a Sunday School person. I want my children to go, and I think it is really important for them. I think that some people are just good Sunday School people and some aren't. I'm the second. Not many people think like me and I don't feel comfortable in Sunday School situations because of this.

But recently some friends were getting on to me telling me I needed to go to Sunday School because I "need to be fed too". Well, I didn't say it to them, but my immediate thought was, "I am 'fed' all the time." "I don't have to go to Sunday School in order to be 'fed'."

To me being 'fed' is finding God, discovering God and honestly, I feel like I do most every day, one way or another. I pray regularly, I'll admit sometimes more than others and I'll also admit that I need to do better with it but I do do it.

I hate that some believe that the only way to be 'fed' is in Sunday School. Besides, I don't really like the phrasing there, 'fed'. Tends to make me think of being spoon fed or brainwashed or something not positive and good. To me finding and discovering God should be very good and very positive.

Anyway, I think sometimes in SS people try too hard to understand things that we don't really need to understand. I honestly believe that many times FAITH is believing without understanding everything.

Anyway, I was reading in Corinthians chapter 1 verses 18-24 or so...

"Scripture says, 'I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, and bring to nothing the cleverness of the clever.' ...... God has made the wisdom of this world look foolish. As God in his wisdom ordained, the world failed to find him by its wisdom, and he chose to save those who have faith by the folly of the Gospel......"

As I read this it just jumped out at me. This is how I feel. I'm not saying that we shouldn't read scripture or that we shouldn't try to understand it but I don't think we need to knit-pick at it. It's there for us; to provide comfort, wisdom, solace, history, and guidance but when we knit-pick at it we sometimes miss the point. When we knit-pick we start to judge, to feel superior, to think we know it all and well, I'm not sure we are supposed to know it all. To me that seems to be what some people do in Sunday School.

I guess I'm going to have to find a new place to hide out during SS so that my kids can still attend. I wish there was a way to make people understand how I feel and that they truly are not helping their case any when they get on to me. I'm "fed", I promise, in my own way that God and I have worked out for now. I'm not saying that I won't ever go to SS but for now, its not where I need to be.

Now, I'm off my little soap box to say my bedtime prayers. Sleep well, dear friends and may you be deeply blessed in the days to come.