WOW, that's all I can say. Really. Isn't it interesting how sometimes you can read just what you've been needing to read when you didn't really mean too? Wow, just wow.
I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off lately. I'm busy getting things ready for the Children's Program at church and I feel like I'm so behind (I'm not really) and I've even been questioning whether or not I'm qualified to be doing this! And I happen to know that others are feeling the same way...
Anyway, this past week some of my quiet time has been well, not happening. I've been reading a daily devotional but that's it and sometimes I've been reading it distractedly. For the last few days, I've been telling myself that I need this time. Time for quiet ("Be still and know that I am GOD") time for study and just time to recoup. So this morning, I made time for it. I spent time as I woke up visiting with God. I told him my needs, my concerns, my fears and then I quieted myself and listened.
Then I got up and did somethings I needed to do and got ready for church and decided to take some time to read this book/study I had been reading regularly but haven't read in about week! I'm so glad I did. It spoke directly to me and I really needed to hear it.
I'm not really a speaker but I just really felt like it was a book for me and I've not been let down at all. Today I read, John 10:10. Go look it up. I'll wait for you..... Ready?
At first, as was reading the commentary, I thought I'm not sure this fits me but I'll go with it. WOW did it fit me. The first was doubt... "am I qualified to do be doing this?" If you have time go read this devotional by yours truly. Why am I doubting myself? Why am I doubting God?
Next came Distraction... remember me saying this week I've had practically NO quiet time? Yeah, that's my distraction, the worry, the busyness. Silly, Silly me!! Focus!
Fear... well, I am a total scaredy cat. I fear failure, I fear people! Good grief, it kind of goes back up to the whole question, "Why am I doubting God?"
Intimidation... fear (LOL) of not living up to other's examples. Not being as good as so and so. Being intimidated by others and their gifts and thinking my gift (which came from God) is not as good as someone elses! What am I thinking???
Priorities... Forgetting what my REAL priorities are... quiet time, family time, household chores. Yeah, mine have been whacked out completely.
Being myself... we'll I'm really pretty good at this one but have found myself questioning things that I know are right, that I know are ME and are what I believe and letting that kind of thing make me do all these things! You know, doubt, intimidation, fear... They all kind of lead to the other... weird huh?
Anyway, this was all just very thought provoking. I had to stop typing this in the middle to go to church and I tell you! The sermon just continued on where I had left off here! It's amazing how when you need to hear something it's there... it's everywhere you look and listen. I'll leave you with this hymn we sang this morning. It's an old favorite of mine and the whole song sang to me but the last verse... "His Eye Is On The Sparrow"
Whever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise
When song gives place to sighing
when hope within me dies,
I draw the closer to him,
From care he sets me free:
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches me.
I sing because I'm happy, I sing because I'm free,
for his eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches me.
I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off lately. I'm busy getting things ready for the Children's Program at church and I feel like I'm so behind (I'm not really) and I've even been questioning whether or not I'm qualified to be doing this! And I happen to know that others are feeling the same way...
Anyway, this past week some of my quiet time has been well, not happening. I've been reading a daily devotional but that's it and sometimes I've been reading it distractedly. For the last few days, I've been telling myself that I need this time. Time for quiet ("Be still and know that I am GOD") time for study and just time to recoup. So this morning, I made time for it. I spent time as I woke up visiting with God. I told him my needs, my concerns, my fears and then I quieted myself and listened.
Then I got up and did somethings I needed to do and got ready for church and decided to take some time to read this book/study I had been reading regularly but haven't read in about week! I'm so glad I did. It spoke directly to me and I really needed to hear it.
I'm not really a speaker but I just really felt like it was a book for me and I've not been let down at all. Today I read, John 10:10. Go look it up. I'll wait for you..... Ready?At first, as was reading the commentary, I thought I'm not sure this fits me but I'll go with it. WOW did it fit me. The first was doubt... "am I qualified to do be doing this?" If you have time go read this devotional by yours truly. Why am I doubting myself? Why am I doubting God?
Next came Distraction... remember me saying this week I've had practically NO quiet time? Yeah, that's my distraction, the worry, the busyness. Silly, Silly me!! Focus!
Fear... well, I am a total scaredy cat. I fear failure, I fear people! Good grief, it kind of goes back up to the whole question, "Why am I doubting God?"
Intimidation... fear (LOL) of not living up to other's examples. Not being as good as so and so. Being intimidated by others and their gifts and thinking my gift (which came from God) is not as good as someone elses! What am I thinking???
Priorities... Forgetting what my REAL priorities are... quiet time, family time, household chores. Yeah, mine have been whacked out completely.
Being myself... we'll I'm really pretty good at this one but have found myself questioning things that I know are right, that I know are ME and are what I believe and letting that kind of thing make me do all these things! You know, doubt, intimidation, fear... They all kind of lead to the other... weird huh?
Anyway, this was all just very thought provoking. I had to stop typing this in the middle to go to church and I tell you! The sermon just continued on where I had left off here! It's amazing how when you need to hear something it's there... it's everywhere you look and listen. I'll leave you with this hymn we sang this morning. It's an old favorite of mine and the whole song sang to me but the last verse... "His Eye Is On The Sparrow"
Whever I am tempted, whenever clouds arise
When song gives place to sighing
when hope within me dies,
I draw the closer to him,
From care he sets me free:
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches me.
I sing because I'm happy, I sing because I'm free,
for his eye is on the sparrow, and I know he watches me.
Beautiful my friend. I hope you find encouragement to walk the path God has set before you. You aren't doing this for anyone but Him. He will be pleased as long as your heart is in the right place. Have fun, enjoy it all, take it all in. Who knows what God moment you will find there!
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